It’s been a while since I wrote on here. Last I wrote, I was waiting for the MRI and nerve conduction study in, although thar one may have already been done.
I had them both done. The nerve conduction study wasn’t done properly, I know this because my letter said 20-60 minutes and I was out in 10, and that includes transferring to the table, whipping my trousers off and giving a brief history. They put one sensor on 2 places on my lower right leg and put one needle in my right thigh, and that was it. That was the extent of my nerve and muscular testing.
I got a letter saying that the MRI showed that I have a T7 compression fracture and wedging of T8.
I had to keep on at neuro to give me an appointment to discuss the MRI. I eventually got an appointment in May 2019.
Well, that seemed to go ok (ish). I had written a long letter with my autism support worker. I wrote down all my symptoms and explained my Autism etc.
The consultant was quite open in saying he was having to take the patients from the doctor I first saw because he left. Meaning he was under pressure from all of the new patients. He said he didn’t think the compression fracture was causing my issues walking. He didn’t do any sort of examination. He said that he would refer me to someone he knows in rheumatology. He said some people never find answers but he was sure that this person could help.
When I got his clinic letter I was fuming. I lost it and threw stuff! I had a full on autistic meltdown due to the crap he wrote in his letter!
Apparently he noted that I have PTSD and so it is likely that I have a functional disorder, that I am possibly converting psychological distress into physical symptoms. He wrote that there is nothing more that can be done from neurology and so was discharging me from his service!
So yes, I was absolutely fuming!
He also wrote things on there that never happened and I took credit for things my GP has done in the absence of neurology making appointments!
After speaking to my dad, I wrote a long complaint about his letter as, on doing some research, I found that a functional diagnosis is basically a bin to put the cases they don’t want to deal with and anything can be considered ‘functional’. I found there were functional disorder clinics run by neurology at London and Edinburgh hospitals as well as one in the west of England somewhere (I think Bristol but I am not sure). So he was also wrong that if it was functional, there is nothing to be done, otherwise there wouldn’t be these clinics!
He had no idea about my PTSD or treatment. He had no proof it was functional and an MRI which showed a spinal fracture and an incomplete or ‘limited’ NCS (nerve conduction study) was not enough to dismiss a physical cause!
I asked my GP for a second opinion. They wanted to send me to St George’s as that is where my gastro consultant is. Which I agreed was a good plan, and so that was done.
I then received a letter from St George’s saying I was to be seen in the functional clinic 😳
I again lost my temper at home! I asked for a second opinion not a continuation of the neuro opinion I saw before! my GP agreed that it wasn’t what was asked for and they referred me to UCLH instead, without sending any of the stuff I had done at my local hospital, so that they weren’t swayed by his opinion.
I finally saw a consultant at UCLH in January 2020.
She did examine me and found that I had reduced sensation from T-10 down. This was news to me as the first neuro at my local hospital only asked if I could feel the needle prick, not if it felt the same everywhere. Usually I am very sensitive on my feet which is why I wear socks all the time, even in bed. I hadn’t noticed the lower sensation until she ran the needle across the bottom of my feet which would normally tickle and I would react because I hate having my feet tickled, but I barely felt it and didn’t have the usual reaction. At the time I felt a little sad. I think it was because it was another symptom, something missed due to the poor nature of my local hospital.
I think part of that was frustration too, that again, I was being failed and not listened to and not given the care I needed. It is, according to my local CMHT clinical psychologist, a trigger for me due to my PTSD.
She said she would get the test results from my local hospital and do a repeat MRI, and do full electrical studies etc and she would see me within 3 months.
Well, before Covid -19 hit, I got a letter stating my next appointment would be November 2020. I was extremely frustrated, at this rate I wouldn’t get a diagnosis for a long time and during all this mess I had found wheelchair rugby and wheelchair basketball. Without a diagnosis, I have to fight for my place in the basketball team against able bodied players. I also can’t play in wheelchair rugby 5’s without a diagnosis. So this was even more important to me than just finding answers.
I was starting to get really fed up with my clinical psychologist, when I said that getting a diagnosis isn’t asking too much, she said it was asking too much. She said it isn’t good to have lots of tests. Lots of tests?! I had an MRI which showed a compression fracture and a limited nerve conduction study – I haven’t had hardly any tests!
Then she decided my autism must have something to do with it after the local neuro 🤦♀️
She thought I might have EDS, which I don’t meet the criteria for.
I don’t want just any diagnosis, I want the right one with proof that it is what they say it is.
So when I wrote the complaint about the local neurologist, I also wrote one to my local mental health service’s trust, basically saying that if it is functional and I am converting psychological distress into physical symptoms, then when they could and should have diagnosed PTSD in 2007 and didn’t, I might have resolved some of this distress and so wouldn’t be in a wheelchair. I was hinting that their failure to diagnose was the reason I was in a wheelchair.
This was interesting as they then got me into the complex trauma service. More about that in the next catch up, which is PTSD or C-PTSD